Monday, March 31, 2008

Am I done yet?


I just submitted my draft of chapter two (the last of the three chapters I had to write) to my advisor. Usually, after I submit a draft I take about two days to focus on German and catch up on other tasks before re-entering writing mode. This time, however, I need to immediately begin revising chapters one and three and should not waste any time. Why, then, do I feel like throwing in the towel and just going to bed, and perhaps not seeing my computer again for a very long time...

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Celebrating His Sacrifice


The resurrection of Jesus Christ is God’s yes to Christ and to His atoning Word.
*Dietrich Bonhoeffer, Meditations on the Cross

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Happy St. Patricks Day!




This Irish hymn was written to the tuneof a song about slane hill, which is where St. Patrick bravely lit the pascal fire, defying the king,and began one of the first steps in beginning the spread of christianity around Ireland.




Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.
Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.

Be Thou my battle Shield, Sword for the fight;
Be Thou my Dignity, Thou my Delight;
Thou my soul’s Shelter, Thou my high Tower:
Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.

Riches I heed not, nor man’s empty praise,
Thou mine Inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of Heaven, my Treasure Thou art.

High King of Heaven, my victory won,
May I reach Heaven’s joys, O bright Heaven’s Sun!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my Vision, O Ruler of all.

One of my favorite things...


Saturday, March 15, 2008

The Joys of Childhood


I am sitting in my room working on my thesis (what else!) and, at the same time, watching our neighbors across the street play a rousing game of tag with their friends. I was suddenly transported back into my own childhood, specifically remembering playing this game with our cousins. It was so much fun to be it, and even more challenging to insure I was *not* caught! I remember our mothers telling us to not run in the house because might hurt ourselves and the feeling of exhilaration when every sense was trained on outwitting the person who was 'it.' Childhood is such a simple time of life; if only I knew that fifteen years ago!


Monday, March 10, 2008

Reflections of a Masters' Candidate


During the past week I have been giving a lot of thought about my life as it currently it and how much will be changing in the next few months. Over the years, I have heard different people say that life is about change. In a way, this is true because there is always something else just around the corner. My tenure as a graduate student is swiftly coming to an end, and I am truly excited about my future as I imagine a life without endless reading, writing, translations, exams, and other academic pursuits. I will hold a full-time job for the first time, bring home a ‘real’ paycheck, and re-learn what it means to actually have a social life.


However, in my retrospection I have come to realize that I will miss certain aspects of my life as a graduate student. Part of me is surprised by this, while the other part of me was fully expecting this realization to hit. Last week I was sitting at my desk at work looking around at the office I have grown to love when these ideas began percolating in my mind. At first glance it is nothing spectacular, but frills are not what make the Center for Oral and Public History the wonderful place it is. Nor does our collection of interviews or the services we provide to students and community alike. Rather, it is the people, and they are who I will miss. We all have our quirks; our good days and bad days, our little office squabbles, yet I’ll miss seeing these individuals almost every day. I will miss the laughs, the crazy re-tellings of the ‘what was that student thinking’ stories, being part of our office family and feeling like I am helping to give back to the community.


The oft quoted lyrics to Joni Mitchell’s song Big Yellow Taxi seem fitting for this moment: Don’t it always seem to go, you don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone. Yes, as I always suspected, deep down I will miss being part of a larger than life campus, walking the quad when everyone else is in class, smelling the fresh cut grass in the mornings, and enjoying the connection to my fellow students and faculty. But, I do not want these words to become a reality in my life. I want to appreciate where I am and value every moment. One of my favorite quotes originates from Star Trek Generations, and I desire to remember this throughout my life…"Someone once told me that time was a predator that stalked us all our lives, but I rather believe that time is a companion that goes with us on a journey…reminds us to cherish every moment because they’ll never come again."


As I finish out my grad assistantship and complete my thesis, my goal is to pay extra attention to the little details and value the time I spend with co-workers, fellow colleagues, and academic mentors, all who have contributed to my time at Cal State Fullerton.

Saturday, March 8, 2008

Have you ever noticed...

Have you ever noticed how a day of inactivity can make you just as tired as a day where you are running non-stop? I find this to be a curious fact, however, I have seen it play out in my life over and over again. Sometimes sleeping in and doing nothing but writing for hours simply do not lend themselves to feel energized, whereas I can have more energy if I'm gone all day engaging in a variety of events. For example, yesterday I spent the majority of the day doing things that involved a lot of sitting in one location and was exhausted by the end of the day. I suppose this means that just stimulating the mind does not help keep the entire body energized!

This is just something I was thinking about last night...

Monday, March 3, 2008

Work in Progress

I am currently in the process of updating the aesthetics of my blog. Please bear with me as I play around with the various options to find the 'perfect' look.

Monday, February 11, 2008

Deutsch

Why, I ask, can't languages be learned through osmosis? It would require far less work and comprehension would increase by a substantial amount. But, no, we have to do things the old-fashioned way.

I have wanted to learn German for a long time, and thanks to pursuing my graduate degree, I was forced to make this a reality. But, it is A LOT of work! I know that in the end it will have been worth it; too bad I can't fast forward in time to save the hours of sweat, blood, and tears. There is definitely something to teaching languages to young children. Depending on how well I master German, I will consider it for my own family.

For now, think of me...memorizing vocabulary and trying to figure out what the heck this passage means! (and, this class was only two units! Ba humbug!)

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Rambling

Hmm...I don't really have anything of consequence to write about. Things have been busy but still a little quiet on my end. I'm excited I don't have any oral history interviews scheduled for this week. I did not one, but TWO last week and spent over 7 hours listening to people. (and, perhaps also got lost a couple of times as well, but we shan't discuss that little detail!) Regardless of how easy it sounds, interviews can be exhausting!I'm spending Tuesday night with my friend Jessica and am really looking forward to it. I've been a little too wrapped up in my own little world as of late and haven't been out doing things. Thankfully, I don't have that problem with my best friend since we talk or leave messsages all the time! And, I really am on my last semester for grad school. It's a good thing too, because I don't think I can stick it out much longer.

Saturday, February 2, 2008

Shock Factor

Okay, perhaps I had a little too much fun with my previous posts subject line, but I was going for shock factor! You know, the, "I'm in love" (creates great anticipation) only to be dashed by, "...with a web camera." Sorry for making you all wonder...though one day I will be shouting that to the world, and I will mean something entirely different. :)

Thursday, January 31, 2008

I'M IN LOVE...


...with a web camera!!!! Thanks to the wonders of modern technology, and a brilliant Christmas present from my parents, I was able to see my best friend and her husband face-to-face again!!!!!! Christina and Peter moved to Rochester, New York, last August, and we haven't seen each other since. Of course, we spend lots of time on the phone to compensate, but seeing her again with my own eyes was so much fun! I will be visiting them in July, so, until that time this is the next best thing to being in the same room together!

Saturday, January 26, 2008

Give me a word, any word...

So I'm sitting in my room hard at work on revising chapter one. My goal was to have a workable draft ready by last night for submission to my adviser. (3 weeks ahead of schedule I might add) We have family coming over this afternoon to celebrate Seth's birthday, and I have plenty to do before they arrive. Yet, here I sit going over my chapter...let me amend that, I am dissecting my chapter paragraph by paragraph, agonizing over whether or not I am adequately expressing my argument and if the word I am using encapsulates the essence of what I am trying to say. And I keep thinking there might be a better way to phrase this and why can't the thesaurus give me a better choice of words.

Now here's the really sad part: I'm only on page 3!!

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Light at the end of the tunnel...

I am officially hard at work on my thesis. I’ve decided to break the project down and refer to it as a ‘chapter,’ ‘introduction,’ or another term that does not specifically refer to it by name. Actually saying the word ‘thesis’ keeps reminding me that this will be the longest, hardest, yet most rewarding piece I will have ever written. Somehow refering to the individual components is not quite as intimidating!

That said, I’m in the midst of writing and have reached a bit of an impasse. My advisers have been most encouraging by exhorting me to, “chain yourself to your desk and write!” In the past, I would have wholeheartedly agreed with them, knowing no other way to conduct myself during the semester. My typical MO was to spend the majority of my time holed up in my room doing homework. But recent events with Mother have changed my outlook on life. I know I’m at the end of a very long academic road, but I don’t want to look back with regret. We only have the opportunity to live this life once, and I don’t want to let a moment go by.

My goal is to find a way to balance my academic perfectionism with living. I want to get out more socially and have time to goof off. These desires make it more difficult to convince myself to actually sit down and do the work required of me when life beckons! (I blame much of this on an acute case of advanced senioritis!) Christina and I were talking about our futures the other day, and I’m excited about mine. Post graduation is a blank slate right now, and I am okay with this because I know God has the perfect thing in store. However, before I get there I must complete this little task. For now, I will console myself with knowing there is light at the end of the tunnel. One hundred pages can’t be that difficult to write...right? :)

Gratefulness

I read this in my devotional this morning:

"Don't overlook God's gifts. Every sunrise represents yet another beautifully wrapped gift from God. Unwrap it; treasure it; use it; and give thanks to the Giver."

What a reminder!

Quoted from: Above All Else: Directions for Life by Dr. Criswell Freeman

Friday, January 18, 2008

Living Our Standard


The other night I was working on correcting a little wireless snafu I created and overheard part of a Christian television program. Jack Hayford was a guest and said something so profound that I felt compelled to share. He said, "Jesus did not call the church to lift the standard of righteousness; Jesus called the church to live the standard of righteousness." We are not called to condemn, backbite, judge, or intimidate people. As believers, Jesus called us to be the salt of the earth:


Matthew 5:12-14: 12 "Rejoice and be exceedingly glad, for great is your reward in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you. 13 You are the salt of the earth; but if the salt loses its flavor, how shall it be seasoned? It is then good for nothing but to be thrown out and trampled underfoot by men. 14 You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden."

This really made me re-think and possibly challenge the way modern Christianity chooses to conduct itself. If we do not live our faith/standard of righteousness why would anyone even be interested in joining a body that is known for condemnation? Instead of allowing ourselves to be swept along the current of griping and fault finding, I challenge us all to rise above this behavior. Let us live the standard imposed by Jesus and be an example to the world. When we make this our testimony, we can represent our Lord in love and show people what it truly means to be a Christian.


Saturday, January 5, 2008

2008

Happy New Year, Everyone!

Sunday, December 30, 2007

A Farewell Toast


This seemed like an appropriate time to bid 2007 a fond farewell and wish all of you a very, very happy new year.


You know, when I was young I always thought that family was defined solely as blood relatives; however the more I live the more I realize that 'family' extends far beyond this small sphere. Family is the close friends God has brought into our lives, those who share that special bond in our in the hearts. Family enriches life, and I am so grateful to all of these individuals for their support, encouragement, and friendship. I offer a toast of appreciation to my family and friends...Happy 2008!!

Sabrina Fair


Song

Sweet Echo, sweetest nymph
that liv'st unseenWithin thy airy shell
By slow Meander's margent green,
And in the violet-imbroider'd vale
Where the love-lorn nightingale
Nightly to thee her sad song mourneth well:
Canst thou not tell me of a gentle pair
That likest thy Narcissus are?
O if thou have
Hid them in some flow'ry cave,
Tell me but whereSweet Queen of Parley,
Daughter of the Sphere,
So mayst thou be translated to the skies,
And give resounding grace to all heav'ns harmonies.

Sabrina fair
Listen where thou art sitting
Under the glassy, cool, translucent wave,
In twisted braids of lilies knitting
The loose train of thy amber-dropping hair;
Listen for dear honour's sake,
Goddess of the silver lake,
Listen and save.

Listen and appear to us
In name of great Oceanus,
By the earth-shaking Neptune's mace,
And Tethys' grave majestic pace;
By hoary Nereus' wrinkled look,
And the Carpathian wizard's hook;
By scaly Triton's winding shell,
And old soothsaying Glaucus' spell;
By Leucothea's lovely hands,
And her son that rules the strands;
By Thetis' tinsel-slipper'd feet,
And the songs of Sirens sweet;
By dead Parthenope's dear tomb,
And fair Ligea's golden comb,
Wherewith she sits on diamond rocks
Sleeking her soft alluring locks;
By all the nymphs that nightly dance
Upon thy streams with wily glance,
Rise, rise, and heave thy rosy head
From thy coral-pav'n bed,
A
nd bridle in thy headlong wave,
Till thou our summons answer'd have.
Listen and save.

Sabrina rises, attended by water-nymphs, and sings

By the rushy-fringed bank,
Where grows the willow and the osier dank,
My sliding chariot stays,
Thick set with agate, and the azurn sheen
Of turkis blue, and em'rald green
That in the channel strays,
Whilst from off the waters fleet
Thus I set my printless feet
O'er the cowslip's velvet head,
That bends not as I tread;
Gentle swain at thy request
I am here.


-John Milton

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Returning from exile

Well, hello again. I realized it’s been a couple of months since I’ve posted anything truly substantial. In retrospect, I can use this as a gauge to how busy my life has been. Busy!!! Not having time to post means I’ve been in academic exile for what feels like forever. But the hard work has paid off…Last Wednesday I successfully defended my thesis prospectus!!!! A lot of time and energy went into those twelve pages, and even though the real work begins now, I’m still excited it went so well. I was fully prepared to be challenged in certain areas and instead, the entire ordeal lasted less than forty-five minutes. In a way, the defense was invigorating and hopefully, my last one will be too.